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Schrodinger’s Uterus

The first time the concept of “Schrodinger’s uterus” crossed my mind, I thought that I was so clever. A quick google search confirmed I wasn’t the first to think it at all. The concept is that after ovulation but before you get a positive pregnancy test (or start your period), you both are and are not pregnant. I’ve been stuck in this place for a long time and its been exhausting; full of highs and lows.

I feel like my uterus is just a terrible student. It’s late to the scheduled period and it can’t pass any tests. This whole experience of trying to get pregnant after half a lifetime of trying not to is weird. When you are on birth control and trying to avoid your fertility, pregnancy is this risk that lurks at every sexual encounter. Once you open yourself up only to find that month after month its not that easy – you feel kinda silly to have spent so much worrying about it.

But comparing now to the past doesn’t matter. Maybe in your younger years you needed that diligence to protect yourself and were more fertile, or maybe right now – no matter how scientific, diligent and calculated – all the pieces of what needs to happen to conceive just didn’t align. Its just really hard to know which piece of the puzzle you’re missing with you can’t see all the pieces that you did successfully connect.

I was hoping on Thursday to release this blog. My intent was to be able to successfully announce on the 18th day past ovulation, I finally got a positive pregnancy test. But it came back negative. So I was excited that on Saturday, I’d be able to release this blog and successfully announce our happy news. But we both know that its Sunday, and neither of those previous blogs came out. So here we are. I’m 21 days past ovulation.

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I’ve taken 4 pregnancy test (three different brands). Statistically, home pregnancy test would be 99% accurate at this point in testing my hCG levels, but alternative fertility indicators (cervix high and closed, weird muscles spasms in my stomach, headaches, period being over a week late) are still promising. So I have a Schrodinger’s uterus. I both am and am not pregnant until I have evidence that proves one way or another.

The sad thing is that I am as convinced now, as I was on the last 3 attempts, that I really am THIS TIME pregnant. And that means nothing, because I remember how sure I felt right before all the other times my period started just a few days late and all the negative tests that had truthfully tried to warn me not to get my hopes up.

I had wanted to share good news with all you of my personal success after this long weird road I found myself of of not easy fertility, but I’m still on it. I’m trying to find this silver lining in that maybe a story of not easy fertility is important to tell too. Whether I get pregnant at the end of this 42 day (and counting) cycle, its still common struggle many women face. We aren’t all the fertile myrtles of the world. Many of us have these questions that doctors can’t really explain back to us and so we are left to wait and see. Hoping the next attempt is different; that all our puzzle pieces line up and we finally pass the test.

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Wish me luck in the coming week, I’m hoping for resolution. – Meg

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Lunch Recipes

I try to cook one tasty meal a week that I can divvy up across 5 days as either the main course or a supportive role to my packed lunch. This week, I got a flyer from Fred Meyer advertising a bunch of meals with pineapple! As the weather gets warmer, I find myself feeling adverse to warm foods, so a fresh salsa with pita bread sounded great!

Pineapple Corn Salsa Recipe Link

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Really simple recipe can be thrown together in under 10 min. Using 1 can chopped pineapple, 1 can corn, 1/2 bunch of cilantro, 1 jalapeno, 1 red bell pepper and 1 small tomato with the spices, walla!

Homemade Pita Bread

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Since I got a bread maker for Christmas I’ve been really expanding my repertoire of carbs I can make. Pita bread was one of those attempts that really wowed me with how easy (and tasty) it is. You can premake the dough and chop into pita sized portions so you can whip up fresh a pita or two the day you plan to eat it! Great for snacking and meals alike. ❤

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Lunch Hack: Flan Cups

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I love the Oui Yogurt cups and hoard the glass containers they come in. They are pricier then I would like, so I’m going to explore alternative tasty treats that I can put in the glass cups. The Royal Flan instant mix cost the same price as 1 yogurt, so great start on this plan. This week I have 5 delicious cups that including the milk, cost 33 cents each and are roughly 100 calories!

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Cardboard Deer Head

This weekend project idea was brought to you by the bargain bin at Joanns! You can get the same kit on Amazon for $30 – so maybe check your local craft store for some deals before buying online! I would definitely recommend this as a fast weekend project if you plan on putting it together as plain cardboard. Its pretty attractive as is, slides into place easy and is matching numbers so not hard to figure out.

The original idea was to give to our parents as an RV decor job present for Father’s Day, but they politely turned us down. My beloved deer head mount stayed above our own fire place until we saved up enough to get the TV for our new living room. From there, the idea sprang that I would use spoonflower peel and stick wallpaper to cover all the panels and give it a glamorized reboot.

So I had a touch of the Rajkumari by Peacoquette Designs and also a whole roll of Coral Jubilee by Ivie Cloth Co. To mimic my results, you will need at least 5 ft of wallpaper. I was careful to arrange the pieces as close as possible to not waste. It you want to do two patterns as I did, 4 feet of the main color and 1 ft of the other should be adequate. It’ll run you about $37.50 + shipping.

I would unroll a small portion of the peel and stick wallpaper and lay the deer cardboard pieces down on top. Using an exacto knife and scissors Since you are covering up the numbers printed on the pieces – you will need to keep everything extra organized or assembly will be a challenge. I covered each piece, top and bottom, and put the deer head together piece by piece. It took me a whole Saturday while watching TV. I’m quite pleased with the results.

Neysa also has her own and she was going to paint hers. I’m excited to one day see what she comes up with!

 

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